Juatjackie, Thanks for your support. I am so alone some times and it drives me crazy, other times I want to be alone. Some days I want to stay w/ my H other days I think I'm insane for staying and should really leave. Right now we are in a good place relationship size. 2 weeks ago we turned a 50 min office visit w/ the T into a 2 hr visit. So I don't know what to believe. For today I'm here, who knows about tomorrow.