Hi Chopin,
This was so well thought out! Thanks for posting.
I can relate. With my former t, she would hug me and hold me a lot, and there was a lot of nurturing touch in our therapy. It was incredibly helpful in working towards helping me to feel safe expressing my strong feelings, and to help comfort me.
I am having a very hard time asking my new t for a hug, or telling her about how much touch was involved in our work together. I guess a part of me is afraid she'll judge my former t for what was going on, or say that I shouldn't need that. Former t says I should ask, and just see what she says. So I get where you're coming from.