<font color="#880000">I'm new here. And i just wanted to mention that i also go to this site because i'm bipolar. when i'm happy it's okay, but when i get sad it's hard for me to dispell the need for pain to stop my thoughts. it's only been 45 days of my new 'hobby' and so far it's not that bad but i can tell if i don't stop soon it's going to get worse. i had stopped for a week and then then i had to start again. then i told myself i'd stop and then couldn't. I didn't realize that it was going to be like this. i've tried the ice cube thing which is okay but it's not the same. i've started to read the thing you guys have at the top of this page but it's still hard for me to weigh out the odds. I always make sure my cuts are clean and the razor and stuff and they're never that deep. and i make sure the scars are always under clothing and stuff. but i'm terrified that some ones going to find out and say stuff to me. i want to get better before they find out. my parents and sis are under enough stress with the divorce (i'm only 14) and my friends would probably tell. so this is all i'll : got for right now. so can anyone help me? </font> confused: