I don't know if it's a good idea to just stop taking it...I don't want to make this any worse than it already is (if that's possible). All I want to do is see my T right now but that's not going to happen... I feel like I have no control over this situation. I have no one to contact and I really can't go to the hospital cause I don't want to be admitted which they would have to do. I will go if I absolutely have to, but I don't think I will get to that point.

I didn't actually get put on this med specifically for depression. I was put on it to help manage PTSD symptoms and I'm starting to wonder if that has anything to do with how I'm reacting right now.

Onionking - I don't really want to share what school I go out here for the sake of anonymity but I will gladly pm you where I go. We have good psychologists here too (at least I like mine) and I know there is a pdoc at our health services but I got stuck with this physicians assistant so I don't even think she's an MD...She is only there on Fridays so if I see someone tomorrow I don't know who it'll be. I know there's also a mental health nurse practitioner too, so maybe I can see one of them tomorrow.

I am struggling but I can make it through the night. I don't have any plans. I just don't want to be here right now, it is so hard to take all of this pain. I need to sleep but I know I won't...