Heart says one thing, mind says another...If I listen to my mind, which I know I need to, I lose someone who once was a great friend to me...but if I listen to my heart then I risk getting hurt again, giving in, and putting strain on what was a good relationship but broke and will never be the same anyway. I also give in to someone who did 2 things I promised I'd never let anyone do to me. 1) Get so close that they learn my inner most worries and thoughts, 2) break down all my walls only to completely leave me without a word later..
I wish I had more than 1 more session with my T before I don't see her for 2 weeks. I also wish I knew how to bring up that I'd like to increase our sessions to 2x a week. My insurance covers unlimited sessions and I don't have a copay, so money wouldn't be an issue. I just don't know how to go about asking or doing it. It'd lower the anxiety between sessions, help me trust and feel more safer around my T, and it'd help with the emotional roller coasters that i'm going through lately.
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Autistic, with a side of ADHD and anxiety.
Disabled, future hopes of obtaining a service dog.
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