<font color="darkblue">[b] I'm so sorry for your sadness...and your loss of your best friend/cat. I know you feel you could have saved him...but it didn't turn out that way... I'm so sorry... The only thing I've found to fill the void losing a pet makes...is another pet. Please open your heart to a new kitten who needs your love, and you need it too.

You are depressed, and that's why all the negative thinking. Depression tells us these lies. There is another "life" out there... the dark waters right now won't last forever... honest.... I hope you will put away the knife, and begin to take good self care.

Come back and post and us here at PC know how you are doing, ok?