You know the answer. It's really bad when you get in that stage of the depression where you don't want to get better anymore, you just want to give in to the darkness.

The meds balances the chemicals in your brain that cause emotions. It's scary to think that all you feel is because of a chemical recation! Whether it's influenced from outside or not, getting your brain to release more seretonin, which is a feel good hormone, is very important so that you can get the strenght and hope to fight off whatever caused your depression in the first place. Listen to your doc!!!!!!! Just try it for a while. If it helps you to sort out some issues then you won't have too hard a time stopping them because by then you have worked through some stuff hopefully. Just remember that this is a longterm plan and won't get better over night!!!!!