Thanks, fkm. I see your point. Just to clarify, my flashbacks aren't severe and I always know where I am but sometimes her working on me physically and some of the positions can trigger. The more she withdraws from me (walks away etc), the worse I feel. The more I feel her presence, the more I stay in the present.

Touch is so grounding for me. Most touch, that is. Some of the work she has to do is physically painful. In her line of work she encounters lots of people who are also survivors and she is ethically obligated to know about these issues (in school I know they cover it). She seems better at working with survivors than any T I ever met before (even though I know she's not my T). She has saved my life by being the first person to find out what happened to me and supporting me through it.... otherwise I think I would not be here today.

It seemed to me actually that she was trying to open the door on this topic by asking what would help while I'm triggered, as well as afterwards. She especially started asking what would help after she withdrew touch, which makes me think someone told her to ask first. I think she would feel better knowing how I felt about it so she would know how to help me but I'm too chicken **** to bring it up. I usually shirk the question. How do you all summon the courage to have this conversation?