Hi TC.... I know you're totally right. I want to ask. So badly. I. can't. do. it.

To answer your question, the work is on medical issues with my body, to recover from trauma actually. Part of the trauma was from an accident, and part from my assault. She was the first person ever to recommend T to me after she found out what happened. While T itself has not necessarily helped me feel "healed," it has made me more aware of my issues, and made me work on communicating what I need to others. This would be the perfect place to practice that. If she wasn't comfortable doing something like touching my hand for a minute she'd just say so. She has healthy boundaries. Sometimes she does touch my hand anyway. It's so ridiculous of me, I spend the entire time getting lots of physical contact (albeit painful) and yet I can't bring myself to ask this tiny thing, in this safe environment. I think lack of being able to acknowledge these needs and being ashamed of feelings in general, is what drove me to develop this part of me, this little girl part who is needy in the first place.

I know you're right TC.... I can't blurt it out somehow, even though I know she'd be supportive no matter what her answer was.