Hi all~ I really hope someone can give me some suggestions!! I'll TRY to be short but bare with me ;-)

I'm 31 fem. I'm sure I am leaving something out and I know you all can't dx, but if others have it I am wondering if it's possible I'm being misdiagnosed. If I am then I want to address it and change psych. I figure if I ask people who have ADHD, maybe I can feel like i'm not crazy and there is hope!!!

Current Symptoms:

*Impulsive spending (this part is bad b/c I inherited $ from my parents so any hobby I think to pursue, etc... I buy)
*Racing thoughts constant and they bounce from topic to topic.
*I feel mentally exhausted a lot, but can't stop. This is hard to explain, but if it's been a rough day then I feel super tired physical/mental, yet i'm an insomniac (I was on Ambien, but psych took me off and put me on Hydroxizine).
*In a 1 1/2 years I have "tried" to learn to sew, do photography, started antiquing, learn graphic design, learn soap and candle making, crafting and I could go on... I get overwhelmed then start something else
*Constant fidgeting, like I have to move my legs or hands, get itchy sometimes, bite my lip...
*I forget what I want to say in conversation a lot... even in mid sentence or I answer my own question
*I find myself impulsively talking, like interrupting (def when I'm excited) or getting embarrassed at what I said to someone after saying it
*I try to get organized, but I freak out thinking about getting organized. I might sit there for a bit, start, make a bigger mess and make things worse
*I lose stuff and a few months ago I think I threw away my wallet, but I still don't know (never found it ;-( )
*I feel like I can't focus or it is so difficult to focus
*I know I waste a ton of time. I'll be on the internet with maybe 10 different pages going
*I really hate interruption like my son came in and started kicking a ball while I was typing and it agitates me and distracts me to concentrate
*In certain circumstances I have to be in control, such as I have to drive...


I took a psychological test just recently. I always had issues w/school work, concentrating, procrastinating... My parents refused to have me tested (I recall a teacher suggesting it when I was like 8 or 9?). I was an avg student. I got to college and barely made it to my Associates degree. After I got married I was determined to get my bachelors degree so while working full time I did online classes and very surprisingly I did graduate summa cum laude or something like that. My classes were so easy though and many of the answers to tests could be googled... I hate studying!!

In the last 5 years I've had ALOT happen...
Nov 2007 - my dad died ; May 2008 - son born ; Oct 2008 - sister died of overdose ; Jul 2009 - daughter born ; Jan 2011 - mother committed suicide

My psych test dx (test wasn't administered by my psychiatrist) was Major Depressive Disorder recurrent w/ ADHD - Not Otherwise Specified (I've read the NOS part might be b/c I wasn't dx as a kid?) Basically the NOS means not all symptoms are apparent.
I didn't understand & I was thinking YES finally I know what is wrong with me!! My sister was dx as an adult w/ ADHD just to add, so I figured ADHD is ADHD.
I go to my psych the following week excited and expecting her to try ADHD meds as a trial, but nothing and no mention of my results, but she wanted me to see a therapist. I figured she didn't get the results yet. So I did start going to a therapist I had seen after my mom committed suicide (she is actually the one that brought up ADHD to me in the first place I should mention), but I couldn't afford the testing then. Unfortunately she can't dx and prescribe rx. When I mentioned it to my gen MD (I wasn't seeing psych then) he was like 'she's a therapist so she doesn't know.' Anywho, after talking to tx upon my return to her she said I NEED to be treated because it's playing a huge role in my current problems. She suggested I ask my psych about it. Well the following week I see my psych and she totally got offended. She asked me why I thought I had ADHD. I went in to explaining a few of my issues as best I could, but it was almost like my mouth was spitting out nothing that made sense and I told her a few of my symptoms, but she was like had you even read about it. Before I could say my test said ADHD-NOS she blurted it doesn't mean I need medicine for it, which I have read might be the case. But, on the second page of my results it recommended trying ADHD meds to see if it helps, but I was so shocked at her reaction. She's always been the cold-hearted, non-compassionate, difficult to talk to type, which is why I was afraid to bring it up. I was afraid she was going to push me to the edge so I just said ok, let it be and left. She's a whole other post though, because due to her reaction I plan to switch to another psych and go as far as to write a letter to her office about the incident. I've had horrible doctors, but she was nasty hateful and she usually is. She does her agenda and that's it.

So anyone who reads this much I really really appreciate it!! I'm like a super detailed over analyzing person. I just want to be NORMAL!! I look at others and can't imagine how and why they are how they are. I just wish I could get in to something and become successful at it!!! BTW I am soooo sorry I wrote a book and kudos majorly for anyone who can help