Lex,. you know I care a lot. A huge huge lot. I know it is an excruciating struggle. Although of course I do not know how it feels. I know that often Eds can help people feel control when they feel out of control otherwise. So I get that. And I get that it is so very hard for you. I also get that you have been literally heroic in your work to try to manage this horrible thing..... ed. I know it has taken such huge enormous strength to do that. And I know you want to go back to feeling the control. I love you very very very much. And of course all i want is for you to not harm your body by starving. The human heart can only take so much strain, as you know. Mostly, I want you to know that I am very very very glad you wrote here. I love you. And you are always in my heart.