Well, some things have happened to help me fight the anxiety. (Hubby helps when he doesn't know, if I tell him he's helping he will mess it up. ) Anyway, I am still nervous but not like I"m going to puke or anythign any more.... I just have to hold on.

Trying to distract myself. I didn't take another pill. I will take it later today maybe. It did actually kick in. I'm actually very sensitive to medicins. For example, non-drowsie cold medicine will knock me for a loop. My allergic medicine list is very long. I'm super sensitive to things like soaps, too. And food. My plan with the lithium is to just be less. Not total zombie. Just less. I know at 1200 mg previously it made me feel like my head was going to explode, but I did really well with it early on, it slows me down and helps me focus and mutes me so I can think a bit, which is why I don't want to go over 600 mg ever.

I might go up to 600 mg anyway. The 300 mg was muting the rage, which was a relief. But if 600 mg can help me focus, I'll do it... See, I can be my own pdoc.... I'm super smart enough.