Estee1. If you think you have and ED chances are you do. I've battled anorexia for five years and am now bulimic for the past three years. I was hospitalized twice and it wasn't until i almost died that i realized i need to get help. Please get help now! ED are tricky. It's not like over comming drugs or alchohol. You can quit drugs and booze and never touch them again and say you're sober but you can't just quit food. There are most likely underlying issues that make you feel like not eating is a way to get back at people. But I know what you mean it can feel like a high at times. You're not alone. If you need help getting started let me know.