thanks for the insight. I know I am being stupid and illogical. It's just that I am feeling a bit better (although I have had some nasty dips - spent most of last night crying), but figure I can do the rest by myself. Don't know... don't know why i rebel against the obvious - just hate taking chemicals and am terrified of the long-term effects. What if I get cancer or other unforeseen consequences. I always hear - oops, didn't know that would happen by researchers... am scared....