(I am just having a hard time deciding what to do. What is it gonna take and how much is to much. I know no one can help me really. No one can answer these questions I just need someone to talk to. I'm lonely, alone, exhausted, fed up, afraid of the future, afraid off the now. I guess I'm just a mess and I think my H likes it that way. It is to comfortable if it is predictable. I just need to know I'm not alone, or that someone else is where I am or once was where I am or it's worse to be in the unknown. What ever, I'm just I don't know.) - I can relate to this Big Mama.....

HE told me he got too comfortable too and well so I guess he had to throw me off kilter and mess with my head some more by leaving and going away and cutting his phone off and having no contact and well this way he is in control and doing whatever he wants playing his games with whoever and well when he does decide to call i dont know how I should be... till then im just trying not to think so much and re-learning how to think about myself and how to move forward...and it is really HARD to do when you feel lost and low and dont know which way to go and are used to having him there...