I needed your reminder: I think I need to remind myself of the the healthy coping mechanisms I've learned. It's just so hard when I get these semi-hysterical feelings and I want instant relief or escape. I was in such a good place over the summer and now for some reason I feel myself slipping falling back into bad habits and losing control. You're right, I'm always scared that there's a bad mood break coming around the corner.

I think I have difficulties during transitions between seasons. I use light therapy sometimes and that may be what I need. I also try going for walks, swimming, drinking herbal tea and getting on a regular sleep schedule. My sleep schedule is all messed up right now. Mindfulness is helpful, too, something I need to remember. I get so obsessed over how I'm feeling that sometimes it surprises me when I break out of that and get out and do something else that distracts me how much better I feel.