Recently I started to talk to a friend(an ex) everyday via skype and we would have some long conversations that lasted 8+hrs everyday for past two months. Few weeks ago I voiced my concerns with some issues and havent heard back from her No calls/texts/emails - all communication ended and I don't understand WHY??? I am borderline and my friend is aware of that and assured me if we hit bumps we would talk things out - so now I am left in a world of CONFUSION and ANGER!!! I allowed myself to be vulnerable and let her in my world only to have her leave. That makes my walls go up and all that anger I have for that friend(ex) pouring onto my other friends as I am being mean and nasty with them and pushing them away. I am backing away because I don't want to be hurt by anyone. My whole life has been like that - hurt/rejected/abandoned. Here in my little world I feel safe with me and my cat!!

I need to learn how to break this damn cycle of pushing the good people away and holding onto the bad people and learning how to get my emotions and anger in check!!!!!!