Just got home from my last in-person session with t. When I first walked in her office and saw the boxes stacked up I gave her a big pout LOL. We talked completely all over the place, stuff from when I first started seeing her and recent stuff and stuff in between. We talked about different sand trays I've done. I read her some of my recent poems, we talked about shamanic journeying and soul retrieval, and active imagination, and dreams, just a real laid-back no-agenda type session. I said how much I'm going to miss her and she said she'll miss me too, and that's it been such an honor for her to walk beside me in this journey thus far. The session went by WAY too fast. As usual. We scheduled our first phone session for the end of the month. We finished by talking about the feelings of grieving in a way of the loss of this part of our relationship. We shared a few tears and a big hug and I told her to "be safe!" and we said goodbye and I left.

As sad as I felt for awhile when we were talking about this whole thing though.... I'm really okay with it all. Is it wrong to say that I feel this HUGE sense of freedom right now? That seems somehow wrong, knowing that I am going to miss her, doesn't it?

Maybe it doesn't at that. Maybe I really AM ready to make the break with T and end my therapy, like I was talking about before she said she was moving. I love her, I am so grateful and thankful to her for helping me get to this point. And I love ME, too. Perhaps that's the most important thing out of all of this.