Thank you for your reply. I will be asking for child support, and he gave us a car that he will be making payments on, a little 2010 avenger. I will ask him to pay for the divorce.

I talked to him again about filing sooner. I did have a small amount of hope that maybe we can work things out, so I asked him do you want to try again or are you done? There was a very long pause, and then he said "we did try. I'm done." He said that there was a small part of him that hoped that the spark would come back, but he's done. He's done, and he doesn't want to hurt me or disappoint me anymore. He knows he's ****ed up a lot, hurt me a lot, and he doesn't want to do it anymore. He's thought about me everyday since June. Thinking a lot. And he thinks he tried, but he didn't try hard enough. And that I never changed. I'm not the greatest housekeeper when I'm depressed, and that I haven't went back to school or kept a job for long, because we moved a lot, I couldn't keep it and it was hard to get hired because of my job history. But all in all, he's done.

It feels like I got left holding the bag here. It's going to take awhile to put away my feelings. The more I think about it, the more I don't think I want to be friends.