thanks chopin, rodie, adel! I have worked very hard this past 12 months that's for sure! T has just been so incredibly helpful in more ways than she even knows. I don't think I'd have gotten the same results with a different T. The funny thing is how I found her. I was researching a list of names my pdoc had given me, and ran across her profile by some fortunate accident or something and it intrigued me so I called HER up instead of any of the names on pdoc's list. I told her tonite, very early on in our work together some of the things she said I thought were a little kooky but I made a conscious decision then to be open-minded and listen and that's what I did and because of that I have come such a long way. She admitted that she isn't a 'traditional' therapist, I was like that's true and thank goodness for that!