Thank you both for listening to me. I do truly appreciate that.
I am to hear "something" in december so I'm told. Only one tinyyy problem. I will be homeless by christmas. The person who now is allowing me to rent a room from him told me he understood I couldn't pay anything but would have to pay back what ever I could% in the future, he would do anhthing for me, a true friend. However... now because of the resession and his jobs, he lost nearly 75% of his clients do to tough times and is looking at me to help out.

I can't! I have nothing but food stamps and I do buy everything with every last cent going to stock the kitchen with food. But it doesn't pay for toilet paper, kleenex, anything that isn't considered a food item.

He's now going broke, and if I can't come up with money by dec, I'm out.. and so is he!
I don't know what to do, I'm freaking out over here. I have depression from my medical conditions, I can't work, god if I could I wouldn't be going without! I just want to curl up in a corner and wither away right now. I feel terrible, he was trying to help me, and now I am costing him money he don't have. Why does it have to be like this? I'm not faking, my illnesses are the real deal, I feel let down by the world.