It would be important to know why your T doesn't think touch is a good idea. And is this her feeling in general, or for you in particular? Does she know you're involved in bodywork?

There were times in therapy I very much wanted touch. My T did not think it was in my best interests at the time. But we talked about it, and the times when I felt that need so strongly throughout therapy. And in hindsight, I think his assessment was right for me.

Interestingly, I'm currently experiencing therapeutic massage for the first time for health reasons, but it's many years post therapy. Any psychological aspect isn't part of the work, but I did make him aware that I needed to feel in control of the process, and that I needed to set the boundaries of what would happen. Basically that amounts to when and where he touches and whether the contact is through a blanket or on bare skin. It's not easy as I'm doing all of this in a foreign language, and I'm far from fluent. But he comes highly recommended, and seems to be quite technically skilled and professional. And I feel a kindness in him.

I've been doing this for about 6 months, extending the boundaries very slowly because I really don't know what to expect trigger-wise as I've never done this before. So far, the only "side-effect" has been that my dreams have been a bit more vivid lately, but not in any bad way.