Hi Anne2.0, thank you for your response. Yes, you're right about my feelings being extreme, and so far I haven't reacted. I'm in therapy, because of these feelings, and progressing quickly. Unfortunately, it's not a linear process. In childhood I wasn't aloud to say no, it was a sign of disrespect. Oh, as a kid I was forced to say no if we were visiting and we were offered a slice of juicy, homemade pie, or mouth watering chocolate cake. Yes, I unhappily squeaked out, "No, thank you." Childhood responses and feelings transposed into adulthood. I did not feel listened to as a child, by others or myself, and am now learning these skills.

I I felt I made it clear to the therapist that I don't want to be a part of homeopathy in my interview. She chooses not to respect my decision. Only, because she is a therapist, and it involves others I feel like the uncooperative kid back in elementary school. Usually, these days I am fine with my decisions. I have friends, and a mom that offers alternative remedies all the time. I continue to politely tell them no, because what I get out of the relationships is more important to me. I'm willing to protect their feelings, and tolerate more from people I care about. If I felt this way about group i.e. I get healing out of the group, and it is worth it to put up with the things that trigger me I would stay. I just started in this group, so I'm not as invested. I gave up a private coffee klatch that I had just started going to, and felt I got more out of it. They've offered to change the day, but my plate is full. I was hoping a guided group would be more helpful.

I like your take on higher power, and will try it. Thank you.

I have group later today, so it's testing day, i.e. putting new confidences to the test in real life. I am hoping to stick it out with this group, at least for my initial commitment. Then my individual therapist will speak to her about my interpersonal skills, and We will reevaluate.