i'm hoping that by writing about it here, I can get rid of it. The good news is, I can finally ask T for a glass of water at the beginning of session, and even talk about what a great change this is in a normal tone of voice. The bad news is, lately I've been asking by saying, "Agua, Señor Boss, agua!" which is what my first husband told me, over 30 years ago!!!, was how his employees used to ask him for water, and he would refuse them. So it's a horrible story. I guess the point is, why would I close my eyes and marry such a cruel person? Aside from the obvious fact that he reminded me of my mother. I guess there's a lot more work to do.