Hi All,

I love my job, but it is so stressful. Many days I don't want to go. I used to go in at 8am but now I am pushing it back to 9 am. Nobody sets my schedule, so it seems that nobody cares. They don't want me to get overtime, yet they pile so much work on my desk it's impossible not to do overtime.

The main trigger for me is that nobody tells me the rules until after I've broken them. It makes me feel so bad and triggers childhood stuff. I went off on the corporate accountant last week due to this. She asked me why we have more cash on property than we're supposed to and asked where form x was. I've never seen or used form x. And, there has been an excess of cash on the property since I started. This is accountant #3 in the last 5 months and the other two didn't care there was more cash.

It's hard enough trying to manage my mental illness let alone anything else. I am trying my best to work and be successful. Everyday seems harder and harder.

Plus, my pdoc reduced my adderall by 25% and that small amount has made it damn near impossible to function as well. I'm tired a lot again, don't want to get out of bed.

Now I'm venting, so I'll stop.

Thanks for listening,

~Shady