Hello everyone. I am glad I finally got up the nerve to join a group. I am looking forward to reading some stories here and hoping I can be a help to you and you will to me. While the doctors can't agree on a complete diagnosis for my mental health, the one thing they all concur on is major depressive disorder. Looking back, I have to say my depression began around 7th grade. I have no idea what triggered it at that time but that is the first time I thought about taking my life. I am now in my late 30s and hoping to get a hold of this finally because I am studying to become a counselor but first I have to get myself right. Today I am finding myself crying over these two stray kittens in my backyard. Its getting cold outside and I worry for them. This leads to me feeling their fear of loud trucks, other animals, weather, etc. The problem with this is I let this sadness consume me and I know it is so ridiculous. I know I have had very high anxiety since last week so that may be contributing. I just know for three days now I have been sinking deeper and deeper into that black hole I am sure most of you are familiar with. I am sure you all will hear everything about me because I am an open book with just about everyone I come in contact with. Thank you all for letting me vent. Have a goo day.