(((sugahorse)))

Have you spoken with your pDoc lately? It sounds like you may need a change or increase in medication dosage. Questioning your purpose and ability to handle life, frequently fighting off tears just sounds so sad .

Try to hold onto those little positives that you do experience every now and then. Use them as reminders that all of life isn't miserable. This really rough patch of life will pass ~ just keep holding on! Put up visual reminders of the positives. Special pictures, words or poems, listen to positive music, long rides in the countryside, exercise, simply coloring can be a big stress relief, word search puzzles, arts & crafts, etc.

You're in my thoughts. Please get help asap & hold on tightly, I'm not letting go.