Hi Shady, I am sorry to hear how much you are struggling. Im not sure I have any good tips but I hope you can confide in someone about this and try to find a way to make it work for you. At work I often felt like everyone has their own agenda and you have to actively fight to get what you want and deserve. To me it sounds like you are letting others take advantage of you. Something has to change or you will get burned out. There has to be someone at work you can talk to about your work load and the unreasonable expectancies. I hope it gets better for you.