Lex, I really hear what you are saying. I hope that you can keep writing. And that people will answer.

This is so hard. And painful. I think that sometimes when we are healing something huge, we see what we are losing. But we do not yet have anything to replace it. So we can only see the power and control that we are losing. We cant yet see what is replacing it. What is replacing it is more authentic. But I know my words dont help much. Because the new strength is not yet in place.

I know these words are meaningless in the face of what you are fighting every moment of every day. Just know I am reading your words. And very grateful that you are writing them. And I am hoping you get other responses here. I love you Lex. And I admire you in many many ways.