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Originally Posted by flipenzeeflop
Time spent with family and friends....sigh. My wife took the kids and left me back in 2010. The divorce has finally really ramped up into Uglyville these days. My friends are the ones pushing me so hard these days i think i am going to end up on the news...extended family is practically non existant. When people go on about those who love you etc i just want to cry. It all feels like such a cruel joke.
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i hear so much gutwrenching pain throughout your thread, but that doesn't mean you are worthless or God has abandoned you. life can be very cruel and unfair.
i know the loneliness you talk about and holidays make it worse. night after night i cry thinking is it just too much to ask to want a family and a home where i'm loved and safe? i go to a church where i am dearly loved. i have a bfriend that never wants me.to live with him or get married. my brother in law hates me to visit. my mom tries to kill me and may havehad a hand in my brother's death in july and she used to drug me and my sister so
her bfriends could sexually assault us. my dad died when i was nine. i guess what i'm trying to say is, i understand cruel and unfair, but i KNOW God loves us. i KNOW ultimately , in the end, all will be made right. i also KNOW you have worth. it's your spirit
and soul, not what you do or accomplish sometimes that matters