I also ruminate about potentially scary or hurtful things that may come up in the future, and for which I feel unable to cope with should they occur. Because of this, I try to imagine every possible scenario ahead of time, and then how I will respond. So that i will not be caught off guard by something terrible. I want to be prepared ahead of time.

Unfortunately, we can't always know what the future brings, and I have spent many hours and days ruminating and worrying about potential bad things that never happen after all. But by then, I am exhausted by the ruminating/trying to be prepared. So i basically have put myself through the ringer by then.

I really want to change this patten.