UGH!!!

I can't stand all the tension I build up over a holiday. I can't face my relatives without valium and I don't want anyone over at my house. Already my Mom is starting in with her let's go gift & grocery shopping, and I feel like I'm a kid again forced into submission.

I had a neighbor who swore off all holidays period. I was secretly jealous, but I could never hurt my parents by blowing off reunions, holidays etc.

I just want to wake up in 2013