I've been there...I have been with my fella for 6 years now...but we went through a bad break up at one point..and he was pretty horrible to me...there are times now where I hold small resentments towards how he treated me...but ultimately I am over a majority of it...you need separate out a lot of your feeling from what happened in the past and see him for the amazing man he is...talk to him...sit down and make a list of things you should have done differently with each other...then both of you TOGETHER agree to go forward and be hopeful about things...the biggest thing is that; you guys went through the break up...both of you....so you trying to heal by yourself may prove difficult..include him and let him know how you feel about things.