I've had depression for 13 years now (I'm 24). I'm in a place now where I'm so utterly lost I have no idea what to do or how to do it. When I was younger and people asked me questions like "what do you want to be when you grow up?" I'd respond with something just to give them an answer, because the truth of it was that I didn't expect myself to live to reach adulthood. And then I did.

I don't have any clue what I want to be... and whatever that is, I'm not good enough to achieve it. No one would hire me. I'm depressed, I have social issues, never had a job and I can't remember most of what I learned at school or college. I want a job where I have to interact with people the least amount of time possible. I did think about running an internet business, but that isn't happening for various reasons.

You can't get anywhere in life without money. To get money you need a job. I'm running out of time and I don't know what to do.

(After years of visiting counsellors and therapists) I went to a psychologist and, like the others, she couldn't help me. She referred me to a Community Mental Health Team and they can't help me either. The psychologist there, who I didn't like, I saw for one session and he already indicated that I was in danger of being kicked out of the service if I didn't make up my mind what I wanted help with (it wasn't my idea to see him anyway, I told the care coordinator it would be a waste of my time). If I knew the answers to my own questions I wouldn't be there. So I guess I'm preparing for the mighty boot. And then... I don't know.