I'm glad your session went well. She sounds like she genuinely cares and appreciates what you have to offer as a person.

With the dr.... I forgot the exact situation.... was it that you don't feel comfortable with this particular dr? Is it possible to find another one? If you don't like that one I'd imagine you need never go see them ever again... but at least you'd satisfy your Ts requirement.

I do understand how ultimatums stink and take away your power. On the other hand there are legal issues that could leave her liable for suit and also, possible loss of license. I've read horror stories about people having their Ts call the cops on them or having them involuntarily committed and then terminating. Intead of doing that T is putting the ball in your court. I know it hurts and it feels terrible, but most likely your T needs to do this for legal reasons.

I hope you're able to find a dr you feel comfortable with.... maybe it would help to post when you made your appt and take some pocket riders with you? You can do this. I feel the same way about visiting dr's.... I can so relate. I wonder, would your T have several recommendations in case you don't like some of them? If you asked her for names I bet she'd be impressed you are taking the initiative.

Kudos to you for going to your T appt, despite how upset you felt. You were strong enough to do that, and you are strong enough to see the dr... I have faith.