Thank you both for you sensitive answers. I was a bit anxious about posting on the forum as I know it's a bit 'unusual' and was concerned about the type of response I would get. I haven't had very supportive comment on other forums I have posted on in the last few months.

What happened three months ago to awaken this fantasy? Well surprising nothing that dramatic. I just happened to read a long detailed post on a forum from a guy with a similar fantasy, something I'd never come across before. He 'claimed' to have realised him fantasy with the help of his girlfriend. Now I'm not naive enough to believe everything I read on the net, but just the possibility was enough of trigger.

I have considered in the past some of the issues you have raised in your replies about wanting to be cared for, neat and tidy and I have even considered the possibly that I may be trying to cast off responsibility for my life by being some sort of inanimate thing to be looked after. However none of these issues would have been present when I was a very young child when the fantasy started so I have tended to dismiss them.

I know there are many people on site and in the real world with much more serious problems than a runaway fantasy but I concerned by the disruption it is causing to my 'normal' life, work and rest. I take your point Perna that I am in charge of what I think of but its getting increasingly difficult to think of anything else.

So I will thank you once again for you replies and sign off....