I KNOW what I REALLY want to tell him. I will NOT say it, in consideration of his feelings, but I sure want to, so I will just post a pretend letter to get it out of my system.

"D.,

I have made a conscious resolution to be more rational in my choices in life, as well as to try to cultivate healthy hedonism. I have made an inventory of my past and current choices and was not pleased with myself, because I discovered a lot of masochistic behavior. In an effort to rectify the situation, I have started spending time with someone who finds me very very beautiful as is and even cares that I have enough food in the fridge. You, by contrast, policed my food decisions and told me to give my breakfast to Maddy so that Maddy and not I would get fat. I hope you will see that it is masochistic to always spend time with the person who belittles and harasses you. For variety, I will now also be spending time with someone who wants me to feel good. I am not breaking up or anything, I still care, I will still come visit you in December and everything will be as planned - I am just explaining the reason behind my reduced availability on Skype. I hope that you will welcome positive changes in my life."

Argh! Feeling very vengeful.