I love the holiday season and the beautiful weather...the little white lights, the cold air, the music, just the season in general. I love the snow, too, but we dont get much here

The drama, crowds, traffic, shopping frenzies, pressure, though, I can definitely do without. It is complete overload of my senses. And then the whole family thing. *sigh* I finally gathered the strength to just not attend any gatherings. I would much prefer to be alone than have to spend several hours with people pretending everything is ok when it clearly is not. It takes too much energy to fake it....and I lose a little piece of my soul every time I am around them.

Also, I have to get all drugged up so I can simply be around the lot of them. It is not worth hurting myself simply to live up to expectations of others....and to put on appearances.