So sorry about how your day has been. I do hope that despite not having the desire to go out, that it actually goes well and you have a good time! Happy birthday!

It's okay to be sad about the difficulties you've been facing, and having the feeling of wanting to stay in a hole for a while. I am sorry that your dad didn't get it. I think sometimes people do get it, just for a few seconds, and then it seems all too easy for them to revert back to what's normal for them. It just feels even more hurtful when you've made it clear to that person exactly how their behaviour is affecting you.

I hope you have many great days and good times waiting just around the corner somewhere.