I went 38 years without being diagnosed. It is only in the last 5 months that the diagnosis of "AS" has been considered. I had never heard of it prior to that. However, when I read the description, I felt like somebody had written down almost my entire life.

SUPER sensitive to my environment (hearing, especially). I would think I was crazy because I could hear sounds that other could not.

Worse is my inability to make friends/meet women.

I have no 'friends', only acquaintances.

I have been out on 4 dates in my entire life. Everything went fine when we emailed/IM each other because ambiguity is inherent in the method of communication. When it came time to meet, I found myself either uninterested, unattracted or was the one who was a disappointment to them.

Now, being 39, the dating scene seems to have no room for someone who doesn't know how to date. I don't understand the nuiances of dating. I wonder if there are any 'groups' that cater to people with AS?

The WORST part of being 'me' (whether AS or just my emotional health in general) I don't even know HOW to love. I don't know what it is, how it feels and/or if I am CAPABLE of the emotion.

I don't know if anybody can say/do anything to help but I PRAY that a magic response will 'click'. Otherwise, I am facing the rest of my life ALONE! In which case, what do I have to live for?