I'm a student of self-improvement and yet the events of the past year have left me unable to pick myself back up. I experienced a devastating stress of losing my job by standing up for my co-workers against a boss who was threatening employees in physical and psychological ways, committing sexually harassing acts, bullying employees, discriminating against employees and more.

I used to work with my best friend and girlfriend. I used to work with many friends. None of them were able or willing to stand up for me when I got fired. And, the man who is guilty of these things still works there, continuing his track record of chipping away at most everyone's self-confidence and autonomy.

I am suffering from depression and, probably, PTSD. I have many signs and symptoms including panic attacks, inability sleeping, nightmares, inability to think about the event or place without experiencing severe anxiety and hopelessness, feeling like I'm a failure, thinking life has no purpose, and more.

I need a therapist but I'm out of money and I'm starting to affect other people. I'm unable to pay my rent but can't bring myself to tell it to my roommate. I'm putting strain on all of my relationships and friendships. I have trouble concentrating. I don't believe in myself anymore. I feel like a failure and have taken towards analyzing my life and painting myself as this evil person. I feel remorse for all of the mistakes I've made in my life.

I am lost. I am not meeting my responsibilities. I am insecure. I get irritable and angry easily with people I never got angry with much before. I have painful memories of the event that destroy my days. I eat so much more junk food than ever before. My body feels a fatigue like no other time - just consistent weakness.

I need help. I have no money for a therapist. I live in the New York Area. I've looked into places that provide discounts but I cannot even afford that. I could maybe afford one time or two but not consistent times and I need help more than one time. I don't want to promise something I can't follow through with.

I need help. Please and thank you.