I'm right on the middle: not excited, but not loathing the idea.

What I usaully end up doing is throwing up (lol), er, tossing up some garland or whatnot the day before so I don't feel so left out. But Christmas is never like it was when we were kids, back before we lost our innocence (for those who were lucky enough to have some).

If the idea of Christmas is so terrible, can you try playing some Christmas music that you find soothing? Strangely enough, the song "What Child is This", despite its sad undertones (or perhaps due to them) has helped me through many a dark Christmas. I dunno, maybe because it's a song about loss...? And loneliness is a real issue for me. Holidays are hard, I suppose, for most of us here. But the right Christmas music, at the right time, often does help bring back some happier memories. And the way I look at it is, if that's all I can have for the moment, I'll take it.