I am sincerely glad that you do not feel suicide is an option for you. I am certain that even though you, at this time, carry the weight of your worries and woes upon your back, the fact that you would think to create a pseudo-hypothesis, that had a semi-developed, fully-discussable argument attached to your query, is a good sign that you are proactive in your quest for windmills and wind chimes (peaceful little things).

In addition, I have no doubt, that you have an entire loving support system in place to aid you in your recovery. I can hear you, your voice comes quite clear to me, through your writing. You are calm, yet strong of mind and character. self-possessed with your views of right and wrong and do not seem the type to be persuaded to change an opinion, once formed, in the area of 'social issues.'

I will end as I have never before. Good-bye, waters. It is quite clear to me,

You are not long for this place,

-Fleeing Bellocq, Muse of the Mission District