Well last wk I see a mental health worker after being referred by my doctor.
It was tuff going I cried when I had no reason to.
I was confident when talking about shameful things,
And when talking about things that had hurt me in the past I was empty.
My moods have varied since that meeting mostly empty, Saturday I hurt my arm pretty bad, I couldn't tell you why Saturday I hurt so bad. As I can't remember why I felt that I needed so much pain.
The mental health worker was told of my si, at previous times along with episodes of depression, anxiety, and panic attacks.
She told me that I would be seeing her this week. And I'm not.
I rang her this morning to see why I had not been given an appointment and she said that I want having one!
I would be starting a group session at end of month for life skills!!

I mean what the hell. I was so angry and my little girl was with me... I had to leave the house instantly so not to hurt myself again. Today is going to be a long day. I can feel the anger in me and I want to hurt to release the anger.

I've came in here to right this to waste time before I can leave house again.

I so angry because I told the worker, that I find it hard to explain to people what's going thro my head when I think I feeling stuff. Now she wants me to sit with strangers and say the same.

And life skills??? I know how to change a flaming light bulb.
I need to know why I keep feeling like I do?
My friends don't feel and act like I do. My family don't feel or act like I do.
Grrr it's just so frustrating :'(