Well, the thing is that they can deny me that, because they're my source of transportation until I start driving, but even then, still my transportation, because I don't have a car of my own. I'm going to see my therapist on the 4th of next month, but I just feel like that's too far away. I know, that in reality, it isn't, but I just want it to be here already. I want to be able to go, because I want to be able to tlak things out, to just sit and talk. But I know that I'm really awkward with this new therapist, my old one retired, which was a bit of an upset.
It took forever to convince my mother into getting me an appointment. She kept 'forgetting' to call. And what really bothers is me, is that I know I'm not feeling well, and most everyone else can see, even some of my teachers. I haven't been wanting to wake up in the mornings, I haven't been wanting to do much of anything, and my mom just seems to ignore it. She's a nurse, for crying out loud! She gets nervous when I scratch myself, but not this?! Is she blind? I wish she was, then at least she'd have an excuse for being the only one that doesn't see what's happening. I'm spiraling downwards.
I've also run into trouble with my real father. He's dating a younger girl now, and she's around my age, so that really bothers me. And he's ditching me on Christmas to go be with her in Wisconsin. There are times I feel like just giving up, and this is definitely one of those times...