Hello all, I am new here. I am a 27yo female, married to the same man since I was 16, and have two children aged 10(son) and 7(daughter). I have battled depression off and on for the last ten years. Pretty much since my son was born. I have good times and bad times. Generally every year about summertime I start going downhill again, (it is like the opposite of the SAD disorder!) I have gained lots of weight over the years, and now I have a hard time making myself eat, I have lost almost 50 lbs this year and counting, and I cannot make myself eat better. I really want to. I am down to 119 lbs, I am only 4'10".

Already this is lengthy...Thanks for listening if you are still reading. I have worked in a psych facility for almost four years now, and I cannot handle it any longer. It makes me feel worse, there is so much stress there, and everyone staff and patients alike are so depressed and in a bad mood all the time. I think this is the sickest I have ever been. I also have Trichotillomania (hair pulling). But if you saw me you would never know. Everyone tells me how great I look, but all I know is how horrible I feel. I wish I knew why I feel sick all the time and cannot eat, when before all I did was eat.

Well so sorry this is long, I'm sure I will have much more to add as time goes on, that is if you all are receptive to listening to my ramblings.

Thanks for listening, and I am glad to be here, hopefully amongst people who are going through the same things.