(((Starbip)))),

Oh, I am so sorry you have experienced that whole scenario. Something very "similar" happened to me where I was the only one to stand up, and I really was "alone" and the bottom line was others just didn't have the stength to stand up and support "me" either. And I was picked on and things were said about me that were not true, it was a big challenge for me.

It sounds like you "are" struggling with PTSD. This is going to take you time to work through, I can relate to not being able to afford help too. Sometimes I don't eat so I can get therapy, I just go without because the most important thing is your mental health.

Sweetheart, there is "nothing wrong" with standing up to "abuse" and unfortunately people that choose to do that often stand alone. You "are" a strong person, nothing wrong with you, it is just very "disappointing" when even though you stand up, justice doesn't happen, I hear you. But, that doesn't mean life isn't worth living and you are forever doomed to feel the "injustice" so "personally". It often takes a long time to see a change in "bad situations" where abuse and negligence is involved.

You did the right thing, even if other people "don't give you the credit you deserve".

You are going to have to be "patient" with how this is challenging you right now, it is going to take time to calm down and make peace with all of this in your mind. You have to find a way to reach out for help somehow too. And you have to speak up "for yourself" when you "can't make the financial commitments". If you get help, you might be able to get financial asistance until you get back on your feet. Maybe you can apply for disability, if you live in the States.

(((Hugs)))
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