Thank you. I'm really trying to accept that me being me is okay. It's been an up-and-down month and a half or so.

I actually don't think my friend and I are at the point where I can ask him these questions. When he told me (about a week and a half ago), he immediately said, "And we're never talking about this again." I mean, we do talk about it but he talks about what he's comfortable talking about and I try not to push him too much. Maybe at some near point, but we're not there yet.

I should say that I did tell him about this and it was no big deal. Now my problem is actually getting out there. I cancel more dates than I go on. Jeez...I sound really screwed up.