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Thank you Mindinpieces, I have enjoyed you sharing your thoughts with me. Maybe just talking about this could help; just seeing other points of view is refreshing.
Yes I said that I do not 'feel love' like others do. I can see it in the eyes of my husband and even other parents and couples; the way they look at each other conveys something that I just don't understand. As far as emotion goes, I know how to react in certain situations but I don't think that I've really felt them... I know that when my kids hug and kiss me goodnight that I smile, tell them I love them and hug and kiss them back-I wouldn't want it any other way-but it does not stir something in me the was it does for other people.
When my husband does something romantic and tells me how much he loves me it seems like I am standing behind myself controlling my 'emotion puppet' of myself to make sure that my reaction is appropriate.
I do not want to hurt or manipulate others, but is my emotional deficit and the facade I have to put on for them a manipulation on its own?
I just need someone to talk to that knows what its like to have such a lack of genuine feelings. Thank you all for your time and thoughts.
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