Im so sorry things are so bad for you at the moment but please believe that things will get better, i know its hard but try and be patient, i hope things go well with your new therapist and feel comfortable enought to be honest with them. Parents can be hard to figure out, sometimes they try and hide from things that are too difficult or upsetting to face, it is very unfair to you i know and i hope they realise how lost you are and step up, you seem like such a lovely guy and realy dont deserve to be having such a hard time. come buy anytime if you ae feeling down or just want to talk. i hope things get better for you and good luck with your new therapist, let me know how it goes